Thursday, 14 May 2015

dear soft heart

Having a soft heart.

It's the cause of many feelings I'm not sure I want to feel.

It's why I ached all over my body when a little girl came to me and wept into my lap on Mothersday because she doesn't know her real mom.

It's the reason I flinched and felt a little sick when I saw the dead dog by the side of the road.

It's why I can't read the newspaper without falling to pieces inside.

Also, having a soft heart is why I hide it sometimes, I guess.

Because baby, don't you know. Soft hearts cost you so much. They will shatter you before they shatter themselves.  They will make you want to rip out your heart and throw it away, the bloody mess it is. The bloody mess it makes you.

They say having a soft heart in a cruel world is courage, not weakness. And I agree.

Because it is sucking away at every ounce of courage I have in me, it's teaching me the meaning of bravery in a whole new light.

I'd say that it's both a blessing and a curse. And I'd also say, that having a soft heart is pretty much a necessity if you're going down the Jesus road.

You don't get to choose. A hard heart, however convenient it might sometimes be, is impossible to have if you're following a Saviour who got beaten to a pulp, had a crown of thorns harshly put onto His head, and then died, to save a human race that denies Him every single day. That, after what He's done, still turn their back on Him daily.

And baby, it's so hard, I know.
But Jesus, see, He loves soft hearts. He uses them to take out the rocks in other people's hard hearts.

Soft hearts are excruciatingly painful things to have.

But in the end, only soft can heal the hard.



24 comments:

  1. I have a soft heart as well. And this almost made me cry. The truth, the beauty. Your point.

    I'm with you.

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  2. This. Was. Beautiful. I can't even put into words how true this was - in general and for me personally.

    Thank you.

    Molly Marie
    mollyslittlecorner.blogspot.com

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    1. I'm glad you could relate. :)
      Thanks for commenting and following me!
      x

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  3. Oh. My. There's a quote by A. A. Milne that says, "Some people care too much. I think it's called love."
    This post reminded me of it. You have some serious talent, Nine. <3

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    1. Thank you SO much, Jordy girl.
      You got some pretty serious talent yohself.

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  4. This touched me in so many ways. I have a very tender heart as well and I realated to this so much. Never stop writing Nine. <3

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  5. Oh. My. Gosh.
    This was perfect!
    "But Jesus, see, He loves soft hearts. He uses them to take out the rocks in other people's hard hearts."
    How amazingly beautiful and true <3
    Oh, and I followed you back by the way, thanks so much for following me :)

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    1. Aww, thank you so much for your comment!
      And thanks for the follow ;)

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  6. For me, it's hard to have a soft heart because that often means I can get quite emotional... Empathy runs in me, and it's hard, and it hurts, but like you said, soft hearts can heal the hard.

    xoxo Morning

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    1. Life is hard for those with empathy in their veins.
      I feel yah.
      x

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  7. You have some serious writing talent.
    This is agonizingly beautiful.

    Leah at http://aprincessleah.blogspot.com/

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    1. oohmywoord, thank you SO much.

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  8. Wow. Nine, wow. This hit me hard, at just the right time. People say I have the gift of empathy, too, but I often wonder if it's a bit of a curse because man, it hurts. But I'm so often drawn back to who Jesus was--the Man of All Sorrows, who wept over Jerusalem, who was moved with compassion.

    Your words were just what I needed to hear. So thank you so much for dropping a comment over on my blog so that I'd hop over to yours. (Amazing how God works, eh?)

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    1. Jesus is our number one example of someone with a soft heart, you're right.

      Thank YOU, girl.
      x

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  9. beautiful........
    www.cascadesofdreams.blogpsot.com

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    1. Thanks, hun.
      PS: I love your name.

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  10. true that.
    It takes something soft to pierce the hard, water shapes stones!

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    1. Sometimes, though, it feels more the other way around. Hard pierces the soft. But being like Him isn't always going to be easy, right?

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  11. This is too beautiful. You are such a wonderful writer, so glad I came across your blog! :) xoxo

    Arushee // unadornedgifts.blogspot.com

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    1. Aww, thank you so much, girl.
      xx

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