and the relief is instant
and feels like a mountain climbed.
but sometimes they're stuck and I can't explain what these emotions do to me,
only that they're heavy and suffocating and lifeless.
And it hurts, numbing the walls of my heart,
I can't feel a thing,
I don't know what to do with my hands,
breathing in and out becomes a war.
And really, honestly,
I don't want to talk about it.